For some reason I haven't felt the need to update this. Even if I have something to say, I just haven't. Maybe later... So...What has happened in my life in the past...week??? Where d I begin and what do I include? I can't believe that Josh has only been gone for a week. I got to see my pretty, pretty Ellie...I realized last night that I havent' truly smiled since the Wednesday I went to Fort Drum, NY. Why can't I feel about Josh the way I feel about Chris? Why must I feel so alone? Why must I feel like nothing I do matters, or is good enough? Why do I always secons guess myself and my decisions? Why do I feel incomplete?????