sometimes i just wish somebody gave a crap. just a little..it'd be so cool for someone to just reach out when i needed them but no one ever seems to be there. and even if they are, nothing they say seems right, and its never the right person i wanted to reach. the worst thing is, i keep thinking about what i lost. or at least what im pretty sure i lost. and it hurts so badly, because i almost had it. i was so freaking close...just once i'd love for everything to work out. thats all i want right now it just doesnt feel the same and i really hate it. there was so much there and its just gone. so fast...but im still holding on like the idiot i am. im always the one holding on, chasing something that never existed. im so retarded