well i am here writing again, and i want to say that this might be one of my last entries. i have found that this is only for the ignorant surveys, and what we want people to know, but we could still tell them in person... i have been doing things for myself lately, nd i have found it to be easy but hurtful. i dont think i am liking the person i am and used to be...which would mean that i am lost...so i am finding who i am, and the things i am doing aren't meant to be hurtful, but benificial in the long run. what i am to be doing today is going to make most hate me, but if that is a step of my prgress, then i'll have to work with what i get. i am sorry to the ones that i have hurt, and i do realize i make stupid decisions, but i look back on them, and realize that they help in some odd way. lol. well this is all i have to tell you guys. love you always p.s just to tell you guys, smokey has died...and well i think that it would be better for me to tell you guys so you dont feel bad later...the cause is too horrible to say on this thing.