i was on my MSN last last night and i was just talking to some of my mates when caitlin came on. i just started talking to her about anything and everything. then i asked her if she had got the emails i had sent her. she said she had, but she couldn't read them for some reason. she asked me what was in the emails and thats when i went all shy! in the emails i wrote to her about how i felt about her and everything and asking her what i should do becasue i don't know if she likes me as much as i like her. she asked me to tell her what was in the emails, seeming that she couldn't read them. i said i didn't want to and then she got hurt. i couldn't work it out, but then i saw that for all of last year i told her everything that was happening in my life and she told me everything that was on in her life. And here i was not telling her something. i told her everything and anything about the way i felt. and after i had finished she just told me that she don't feel the same way as i do. i was so sad when she said that, i almost died. but then she said something else- "it is hard for me to stop myself from liking you" after she said that we talked for ages about other things, but i now feel really happy- i have got things off my chest that i have been holding back for a long ass time and what she said makes me think that maybe she really does like me..... whos knows? What makes a man, a man? A friend of mine once asked. It's the choices he makes. Not how he starts things, but how he finishes them.... saying that, i have made uo my mind that i will keep trying for this beautiful girl. peace