It is 3:55 a.m. I am about to lift some weights. I want something or need something, but I don't know what that something is. I feel confused yet knowledgeable. I feel strong yet weak. Calm and explosive. I want it all to be cleared up. I don't want anything to become clearer. I am so full of chaos right now all I know is I want to do another set and let my brain rest for awhile. I am on another sobe and some muscle building supplements that give energy. I am pumped, yet I don't wanna do anything. I have nothing new to tell you except that I went on a picnic with my sis and some of her friends. It was a failure if ya ask me. I also watched star wars revenge of the sith, finally. It was a good movie. Movies don't have the same effect on me as they used too. Talk to me. Bye for now.