I've felt like one for the past couple weeks. Mostly from a mix of guilt, selfishness, boredom, isolation, stagnation, empty promises, too much sleep, and lack of sunshine. Sometimes it feels like I can't get enough air and it doesn't help that I smoke. I feel like those monkeys they used to test to see how the ones with interaction felt alive while the ones who were ignored crawled up in a ball and waited to die. It isn't normal for an 18 year old to feel like their life is going nowhere and panic about it. Is it?
yes she is oddly enough, i would never have pictured that. And yes it's totally normal to be 18 and lost, i think it's a requirement. Maybe quit smoking? It's a challenge, You verses the headache and shaking..i found it amusing for a few days. Cheer up. We're all panicy, lost little monkeyes fronm time to time. Things will change, life will became more palitable and exciting, or at least i keep telling myself that.
You need an adventure.