Feeling: strange
This is how I feel lately. How I feel about moving back. How I feel about starting over. How I feel about not being a full time college student. I feel like i'm making a lifetime decision, and it scares the hell out of me. I'm fickle. I feel like everyone wants me to go back to the simplicity of here. I'm not simple. I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I have the but the highest of aspirations, they don't lie in middletown, but then again they didn't lie in Newark. I'm not quite sure if they lie in Delaware. In fact i'm sure they don't. I'm overwhelmed. I'm underwhelmed. I'm scared. I'm confident. Yet I will never doubt myself. I don't want to come down.
Gonna get back to basics
Guess Ill start it up again
Im falling from the ceiling
Youre falling from the sky now and then
Maybe you were shot down in pieces
Maybe I slipped in between
But we were gonna be the wildest people they ever hoped to see
Just you and me
So whyd you come home to this sleepless town
Its a lifetime commitment
Recovering the satellites
All anybody really wants to know is...
When you gonna come down
Your mother recognizes all youre desperate displays
And she watches as her babies drift violently away
til they see themselves in telescopes
Do you see yourself in me?
Were such crazy babies, little monkey
Were so fucked up, you and me
So whyd you come home to this faithless town
Where we make a lifetime commitment
To recovering the satellites
And all anybody really wants to know is...
When are you gonna come down
She sees shooting stars and comet tails
Shes got heaven in her eyes
She says I dont need to be an angel
But Im nothing if Im not this high
But we only stay in orbit
For a moment of time
And then youre everybodys satellite
I wish that you were mine
So whyd you come home to this angels town
Its a lifetime decision
Recovering the satellites
Everybody really knows for sure...
That youre gonna come down
That youre gonna come down- Counting Crows
Dear that would make my life! Should we go north, south, or west? Its all very exciting.
I decided after this pack I'm quitting. I'm just getting to ridiculous with all these cigarettes.
I listened to Lily Allen's the fear, and it made me think of our life's situation. ya know? give it a listen and tell me what you think.
Oooh guess who I finally talked to today! Cait, I think we've smoothed things over again, but you never can tell. So it goes :P
Ah don't worry dear, we all feel that way. I mean I've been scared shitless because I still don't have the foggiest idea of what it is I want to do... about anything not just school. We'll get through it we always do!
-geoff
beth, try to relax. I know everything seems like one big panic but you are reacting the way anyoneelse would. Try not to overthink things, all it causes is headaches and more feelings of being lost. You will work things out but it takes time. If theres anyone I know strong enough to get through most life challenges its you. I swear on that.