ok i just took a nice long hot bath and cleared my head of most things and then i started thinking (very rare moment) and i thought about every thing me and gabriel have gone threw and ive relized that i havnt been totally honest with myself and i kno ive been trying avoiding saying and feling this but god here it gose i have to admit i like gabriel there i did it but im scared to admit it cuz if i do then i kno he might like me back and then then we might get to gather agin then ill screw up agin and hurt him and he will hate me even more and we will never be friends and i dont want tht i wanna be friends but yet then theres that happy happy joy joy side of me that says if u like him admit it get back togather be happy u wont screw up blah im so confused mith my feelings and all i kno is that at the moment he hates me i like him agin im scared of my self i have a head ache and i reli wish i was sleeping over roxies house and cc was sleeping over too ttfn