i listen to music to drown my thoughts. instead it only traces over every word, with big black texta. i had another panic attack last night, and while i was there crying and gasping for air.. i started thinking - its like i feel every single emotion all at the same time, and they choke me up and i panic...but then i stop,remmeber to breathe, and suddenly i feel them flow through me one by one, and for a slight second all i feel is content. until next time shibby