i really dont know what im doing with my life right now. i need to up my availibility for work...so i can make more money. you know what sucks is...i find someone who makes me entirely and completely happy, and i cant have them. im not used to being turned down. as horrible as it sounds, i dont think its ever really happened to me before. i just dont think its fair. lol my friends are home for the summer, and are already finding their summer romances, getting over people, and here i am hung up on B. i am a dumb, dumb girl. nothing but a dumb, foolish girl. a dumb, foolish, niave girl, who needs to be swept off her feet.