i really don't feel like writting, i don't feel much like doing anything, i feel so tired, and heavy, like i can't eve move, no matter how hard i try, i've felt like this for awhile, jus not this bad, i feel like shit, and i need this to stop, and i have to go to bed normal, and i have to eat, i have to actually be right again... i don't eat, i don't sleep, i jus don't kno wut to do... if i'm so happy... then why do these tears come at night? you keep going away, my friends say i need to stay, but i keep running after you, i kno i don't need you, and i don't want you, and i kno your gunna kill me inside, but something jus keeps telling me, to keep going, to keep chasing, to get you back, and never let you go again