i think i will no longer be using this diary. i've found that it hasen't really helped, because i still hold everything inside, and still blame myself for when she gets angry. i hate it when that happens, especially when i have to leave that night for a basketball game. i've given up. i can't pour my soul out anymore then i already have. you all know how i feel and what i think about. sometimes i think she doesn't realize how much she means to me, i wish i could make her see. bye. ~Adam~