Feeling: exhausted
I don't understand what keeps us apart.
I don't understand what makes you cling to her.
I don't understand how you make me feel so guilty, when I've done nothing wrong.
I don't know how you can play the games, and not expect me to get hurt when there's no follow through.
I don't know why I keep it up, knowing that I'm getting nothing but a vague half-promise of a maybe in return.
I don't know why I think it'll get easier when you're gone.
I don't know much of anything these days.
I don't even need to comment because you already know that I <i>completely</i> understand.
You're awesome.
And you can do better (or at least that's what I've been told!)
Tamara,
<i>"I don't know why I keep it up, knowing that I'm getting nothing but a vague half-promise of a maybe in return"</i>
I can understand this completely. This is how the last 10 months of my relationship with my ex-fiance was.
hug There is promise on the other side of all this mess.
Kate
hug