Dear Diary, This is a conversation between Eric and I tonight. I just had to ask him... Not that it helped any. Anyway. Eric is obviously "I'M HUNGARY FOR TURKEY." Stupid name for a stupid... never mind. Lisa Ann says: I have one question. I"M HUNGARY FOR TURKEY says: um--- when was quebec founded Lisa Ann says: i'm serious. I"M HUNGARY FOR TURKEY says: yeah--- go ahead i'm listening Lisa Ann says: What did you mean when you said that I shouldn't give up hope? Or better, why did you say that? I"M HUNGARY FOR TURKEY says: AHHAH I"M HUNGARY FOR TURKEY says: what did you think i meant Lisa Ann says: I just want to know why you said that. I"M HUNGARY FOR TURKEY says: well---- i said with the intention of you figuring it out on your own=--- sorry Lisa Ann says: It isn't fair. Or nice. I"M HUNGARY FOR TURKEY says: how so Lisa Ann says: Because. It's driving me insane and I'm hating myself for it and I'm sick of the guessing and the confusing and the stupid, stupid secrets. I"M HUNGARY FOR TURKEY says: WHy is it driving you insane Lisa Ann says: Because I don't know what you mean... I don't know what the crap you are thinking... I"M HUNGARY FOR TURKEY says: I"M HUNGARY FOR TURKEY says: what i'm thinking= I"M HUNGARY FOR TURKEY says: you should never try to figure out what a psychologist is thinking---- Lisa Ann says: I think you're messing with me. I"M HUNGARY FOR TURKEY says: no---- i wasn't messing with you when i said that -=--- i deffinetly meant something significant by it Lisa Ann says: Why? Why did you say it? Lisa Ann says: You really did make things a thousand times more complicated. I"M HUNGARY FOR TURKEY says: NOpe--- not telling---- yet--- --- i might tell you sometime--- Lisa Ann says: Yeah. I'm sure. I"M HUNGARY FOR TURKEY says: hey-- I"M HUNGARY FOR TURKEY says: did i not tell you that one night in your car --- about that one date thing I"M HUNGARY FOR TURKEY says: yeah thought so---- Lisa Ann says: Hey Eric. Have you ever thought that I might not want to wait? That I WON'T wait? I"M HUNGARY FOR TURKEY says: wait for what Lisa Ann says: For you to unconfuse me. For you to start making sense. For you... to tell me what I want to hear. I"M HUNGARY FOR TURKEY says: um I"M HUNGARY FOR TURKEY says: ok Then he logged off. I am only more confused... and more angry... But I can't think about it anymore. I can't worry and wonder. It is driving me insane and I can't stand it. So I'm posting this and then maybe I won't have to think about it so much. Love, Lisa Ann