'give us a tantrum and a know it all grin just when we need one when the evening's thin oh you're a beautiful a beautiful fucked up man you're setting up your razor wire shrine' --- Okay okay, so I've been a little bit crazy lately. Carley said it best, I'm in one of those 'fuck the world' moods. Ever since my bad day on Saturday, I can't snap out of it. It's pretty obvious I'm off the teen angst scale. People keep asking me if i wanna talk and stuff. Even my Dad noticed. I feel bad. Like I'm making people feel guilty for the way I've been acting. But it's really no one specific, it's not even anything specific. Yet, it's everything. Oh, i'm so weird. Hmm.. the best way I can explain it-- It's like those rubix cubes. You're trying to figure it all out and get everything to match up and sort the different colors. But it's really fucking hard to do and you get real frustrated with it. Well the rubix cube is my life right now. So really, don't worry about me. I'll figure this one out on my own. Heh, gosh wtf I'm 17! --- Unlike my amazing last years' 4th of July, I was not with a crush and I did not smoke some damn good weed. I refused to have a bad holiday though. So I just created my own enjoyement. I took a lot of pictures and let myself get lost in the chaos of the city. I liked the fireworks. I hate when people say 'You've seen one firework, you've seen them all.' Damn those people, that downgrades them so bad. They're pretty sweet, especially against the city scenery. See what i saw... --- I need some good new music. I've been listening to the new Relient K cd too much. Preferably, something smooth and mellow. Good cruising music. Any recomendations?