This is all happening too fast and it's my fault... I let it happen like this and now I can't get out of it. I haven't even met her in person yet and she's saying she doesn't wanna loose me. She's not suppose to be saying things like that yet. Is she? I mean, I'm not ready for that yet. The problem is, I can't tell her that because I made things this way. She said things and I said things... and now it's too late to turn back. I wish it weren't, but it is. I want to see her though. I want this weekend to get here so bad, but beyond that I don't know what I want. I like her, but I don't know where I want this to go. I know this is all random and incomplete, but I don't know what else to say, so I'm just going to leave it how it is.