dear you mannnnn my house has been like.. really stressful lately. yesturday morning my step dad was like freaking out at my brother, for NO REASON at all. i hate that. hes such a control freak. grrr and i love my brother so much, hes pretty much the only thing in my house that makes me happy besides my dog, and his happiness means a lot to me. michael said he would hit ryan.. and that made me really sad. dont hit my brother asshole. hit me! i want to protect my brother from anything wrong and mean and any hurt. if possible. so yesturday morning was really stupid and like i was really anxious and crap and i almost started crying because of that and plus my mom was freaking out. my mom always gets like this around the holidays and its sort of stupid. but i try to be there for her in the best way that i can because i love her. so tonight, we found out my sisters car got towed for the second day in a row, (shes away at college 2 hours away..) so of course my mom is like freaking out, and i was just in her room and i hugged her and i told her everything will be ok, and to just give it time. i am always there for my mom when she is stressed out and i usually am able to help her. i like helping people out when the going gets rough. :) so besides bad things, i hung out with taylor today and at first it was not great because we were being mean to eachother but then it got good and i really enjoyed being with him. he makes me feel so good. just like i know i should my breast tucked inside my bra my face painted like a movie star. haha crass i dont even like that band. anyway... he really does make me feel great though. for most of the time anyway :) and we watched liar liar at his house and had pizza. sooo i have lots of homework, i should get to it.. test in spanish.. woww my mom is freaking out and talking about suicide............................................................... geeeeez................................................................................................. i dont like this stress. killing yourself is stupid. you only live once. so, spanish.. spanish is hard they move to quick. no me gusta espanol. i love taylor though. i wish he was here though. and he could tickle my back and play with my hair and make everything disapear............................................... why is there problems in the world godd its so lame. why are girls so slutty? why am i so stupid? why are there starving children and blbalbalabaoajdasdj. kkkkk im going now. sorry this entry was so stupid. but today was good. ......