I think the main problem is that no one around me believes i could get over a social anxiety and therefore i don't really try. I mean i was supposed to apply for a job at a cool place but everyone was like "why are YOU applying there?" and so now i feel like an idiot for even thinking about it. And i was invited out later in the week to see a friends band but only told the basic details....so it kinda feels like people don't expect me to have the confidence to go...so im not going to try? i dont know. I mean its like that bright eyes song Lua where he is like i wouldnt reccomend it but it sure is one way to live... i am just expected to be unhappy and stuff. Everyone yells at me for not being able to sort out my life but i cant if everyone expects me to be unhappy forever.