STUPID F*CKING !#$%@ &*(@#!!!!!! *fumes* Oookay, now that THAT'S outta my system... Hi! How are you? Sorry, a couple things have been seriously ticking me off... and I've just about had it up to here with all this BS mumbo jumbo BULLSHIT. Vague enough for you? ;-þ *siiiiiiiiiiigh* Hope everyone had a fun, relativey-accident-free Fourth of July. It was fun to watch Winter enjoy her first experiences with fireworks. She seemed to like them. I am most certain she's teething now, which ROYALLY blows (Grummpy City). But, she's still the absolute cutest thing ever, so I can't complain too much. I supposedly have an appointment with a psychologist (NOT psychiatrist) on... Wednesday? I think... I dunno how that'll go. I like her so far... but I suck a LOT at talking... especially about me or things that bother me... I'm just going to collapse into a heap of blubbering stupid tears and we'll get NO WHERE... but I guess I have to try. I know I have a great deal of "unresolved internal issues"... How can I not? But I'm still also a little worried about seeing the same psych as my husband. Bah. I'll never go to one unless I go now. Step number one; GET COUNSELLING. *sigh...* Have you ever stopped and tried remembering things that were once important to you? Or things that you used to say were "all you wanted"? I recently was thinking about things that I used to say I wanted in a guy/relationship... I don't know if I changed or what... I still think I'd like those things... bluh. I'm shutting up... Goat thinks...well he's hurt cuz all I seem to be able to do is complain about him. He's kind of right... it does seem that whenever I speak of him its bad. But then... generally when I take the time to write its cuz I'm upset... *sigh* I'm sorry. I don't want to give anyone (especially him) the wrong idea of how I feel about him. I love him. He's a great guy. If what write here makes anyone think otherwise I want to say here and now that they're wrong. I complain here. Its bad, but its what I do. This is my vent. Generally, I just need to vent the bad. I'll try to write about the good too... I just usually want to do other things when I'm happy. But this entry is getting too long and has no real point so I'm shutting up now.