REALLY STRESSED i feel really lost right now n i dont' know what i'm doing in my life....u have no clue how much i need you right now idk y i told him...i shouldn't have...another dumb thing i did in my life this year... he said he won't forgive me..even though it's almost been a year he said he will always be mad....but no matter how many times i say i'm sorry n TRUELY mean it from the heart....he still rejects my apology at the dance he said he would dance with me...but didn't.... i found our story we wrote....about a leprichan!! that made me laugh when i read it..thinkin about the good times we used to do everyday...but then i had to meet ::Him:: and boy he changed my life a lot!! school was really shitty today idk what's been going on but i hate it to pieces!! n today after school was bad to...i mean i burned myself on the stove while i was cookin..n i laughed...usually i would scream...no i laughed he said the last time i saw :Him: was the last time i saw him also... i'm sick of how i used to be able to tell him n e thing..n it was always us two...everyone said it...then i went n had to ruin it...at the wedding..when we danced...EVERYONE ran to get a camera...i don't think he remembers...but i do.. WHY why did i have to sit there n ruin it...n not even try to fix it..have sumone else run my life?? he doesn't believe me...what do i have to do to make him believe?¿? he says we should hang out more...but i think he's lying..cuz whenever i would want to make plans...he wouldn't want to do them... but he said he will be there for me... i know that a million words wouldn't make u come back...i know...because i've tried....i know that a million tears won't bring u back...i know...because i cried ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ idk what to do n e more about n e thing...i'm sick of puttin on a fake smile more then half the dayz this month...but one person said they would fix all my problems so i would be able to be happy again....n if they are able to do that...i would be the happiest girl alive