god...i can screw up in soo many different ways but i think this would be the worst...goddammit...but im also thinking this is happening cuz of how in this relationship now...it seems to be all about sex...i didnt want a relationship for sex...well not soo soon...but im starting to really like sum people now..even tho i have sean...i feel really horrible....but i cant help it...maybe its the fact that i no they wont be asking for sex all the time..crap...im a horrible horrible person...i dont understand what people see in me...maybe im better off alone...and misrable...and ill probably be dead before the age of 30...