things are weird. i've been so up down lately. people have been both making me deliriously happy, and miserably sad. sometimes its the same people doing both. i just am really lost. i feel like i've lost part of myself, or just a connection to something. i don't know. it rained today. usually that makes me wonderfully glad. not today. i cried a little. it came out of nowhere really. hold me. its just you and me as the stars fall down tonight.