So once again i have decided to fill u in on my life to anyone out there who reads this. I feel physically and emotionally drained right now, for reasons only few know about . Well christmas is only in 4 day snad i am not really prepared for it. To me it just dosnt seem like a joyous time of the year. I feel its just another over-advertised holiday that corperate america can make money off of, butr i love it none thre less. So i'm off to do something else.