I just don’t get anything anymore faith, life, love, happiness, sadness. Its all meaningless to me. Living seems pointless. The feelings I usually felt for someone has disappeared and reappeared all in an instant. But now its gone, I think forever. I don’t need the feeling of someone being there, protecting me, laughing with me. I get by just by myself. I was so strong in my belief, I didn’t swear, wasn’t hatful. Sex waited until marriage. But I throw that out the window along with all things that I cherished. Jealously was my best friend but then I realize there’s now point. Obviously I can’t get what I long for, and I faced it. I don’t shed tears, and my laughs are useless. I can’t make people smile so why try, I wanted to impress someone but why should I when nothing will happen? I wanted to be his everything, I would have change for him, I wanted to be his perfect girl, but fuck it. I have moved on from everything. Friends. Love. Joy. I yearn for hate. The feeling of anger. The fierce in someone’s song. I want it. But how can I have it when I feel nothing?