Feeling: alone
i let myself cry until i threw up,
and it was okay for a little while,
but right now i'm honestly shaking...
and nothing feels okay.
"i just poured my heart out
there's bits of it on the floor
and I take what's left of it and rinse it under cold water
and call him up for more"
that's a horrible feeling, when you cry so much that your throat feels like it's going to erupt and you start getting nauseous.
luckily, I have never vomitted.
but horrible none the less
friends indeed. though you update like once a year! ha