Listening to: chit chatting of the guidance office
Feeling: confused
You confuse me....I don't know what to say. I don't want to hurt my friend, but I'm tired of being miserable myself. I hate this....It is driving me nuts. Sometimes I just want to slap myself, and tell myself to wake up from this dream that will soon turn into a nightmare. I don't want to feel like this. I like this feeling. "And who am I to be vying for your touch, and who am I, I bet you can't even tell me that much". Now what am I suppose to think, what am I suppose to do, I don't know what to say except, "fuck you and your untouchable face, and fuck you, for existing in the first place"
you aren't hurting your friend, it was just sex, that's all it ever was, the "feelings" i had were simply me liking the fact that someone was paying attention to me and i had someone to sleep next to at night, i lpushed him away on purpose because i knew he still liked you and you liked him, you deserve a chance at being happy more than i need someone to sleep next to at night that's only an easy lay and a good friend
(btw, i never refered to him as an easy lay *wink wink. i love you babydoll, mac &pi