i was never really mad at red. really. yes i liked chris. yes he did not like me. yes i was getting over this. i mean, i thought chris knew and i didn't think it was a big deal because he was there, i am here and i mean, nothing was going to happen. i figured we'd never have to address this. i don't understand why it has to be such a fucking big deal. people like people all the time. it's not middle school anymore and i don't care for childish games. if i could handle it, why couldn't you? i wish things didn't change. i'm not one for awkward relationships and i hope chris doesn't wish me to blow off the face of the earth. i meant when i said he was one of my best friends. and that has nothing to do with whatever i was feeling for him. i'm tired of this shit. seriously. also, i don't think i'm pitying myself. so please don't tell me i need to stop what i'm NOT doing. my regards, Rosie post script Shout outs to: the homegirl cristina, who knows what i'm talking about. leo, who always tries his hardest to make me feel better my valentine carlos, i hope you feel better now chris, i hope we're still friends red, don't worry about it. i would've done you the same favor. and gerri, my salvation