i'd be an angel

Feeling: conflicted
Why do I always fall for guys that I have hardly anything initially in common with. Seriously, I always like a guy who is nothing like me, he's always kinda conservative or geeky or something. He isn't like me, he's a lot more conservative. He won't like a girl whose got piercings and an unusual obsession with plaid. I mean, we're really great at talking andd we have a lot in common when we get to it. But no...I don't think its gonna work. Everythings make me soo mad right now, I missed all the shows I wanted to watch, my media player doesn't work on this damned computer, I don't like my hair, and I'm soo hungry I could eat a burger.....I'm a VEGETARIAN for fucks sake. My parents expect me to take care of myself all the time now, but all I want right now is for somebody to take care of me....I want somebody to make me dinner, I wish I didn't have homework so I could sleep. I miss being 9 and not having to worry about anything. Now I'm up at night wondering when the world will end, and killing myself imagining that someday I might lose my house and my parents. I wish I didn't know anything, I wish I was still a naive little girl who played with barbies and hated green beans. Instead of the stressed, unhappy, lonely person now. I wish I still had somebody to call when I feel like crying...but they're all gone.
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have a lot of "you" time this weekend, but dont stay in the house.

Like, take yourself on a date. Buy yourself flowers, take yourself out to dinner, etc, but dont invite any friends and make it all about you you you.

Or cry.

It always helps me.

hugs take care, i'm here to talk if you want it.