I might go into detail later but for now this is just a synopsis. I've lost my mother...she decided to file for sole custody aginst my wishes and then when I told her that I wanted to stay where I was so that I could finish school, she flipped the script and tried to use all that's she's done for me against me knowing that I'm an emotional person already in pain. So now I feel more like shit than ever before..I betrayed the only person I had for most of my life and now she's gone..I hate making decisions...espcially between my families. That's the only thing that could cause me to die and I feel like I'm dying now... Umm..I gotta go for now..thinking about it is killing me right now... Later~