okey i am fine now. . . . so i realized that i am not not so jealous after all.. . and i guess yeah i can do a lot of things that makes me happy. . . and i never regret anything. . . never looking back. . . today was a day but i am fine i nthe end thanks to my friend. . weeeeee it think i'll be okay no need worry. . looking back at the past i will always love my life. :) a drop of jealousy. . .