wow, i havent written in here for such a long time.i have so many diaries i just lose track. summer is almost over and i feel like i totally wasted it.i mean yeah, i did junior lifeguards adn i had fun.but did i hang out with my friends like i wanted to so badly?did i do the things i even really wanted to do?no.i didnt.i just sad around getting fatter.ew. oh well, on a brighter note..my birthday is in like a week.yay. Me,Cassidy and Jenn had a sleepover.we were up for so long,i love those girls.and Jenn needs to hook IT up with matt :) "i think shes too busy drooling to notice us ;)" yeah i heard that jenn! hahaha. i think im totally over trevr now,after what he just did.ew, i hate him.and come to think of it..im not going to fall for another boy again.i'll try my hardest not to.because in the end i always end up getting hurt, and i mean come on..is it really worth it anymore?i dont think so.Him and his friends tell me "he broke up with Annie for you" and yeah, i knew that was going to happen.i knew it.But then he goes and gets another girlfriend.COME ON! i mean, he is SO confusing and he is just-ew.he cant even make up his mind on what he wants.jerk. Catie told me that if i stop looking so much for a boyfriend and what i want in him..then one day he will just come to me when i dont even expect it,and that i'll be happy that way.i hope shes right. i need to clean my room,and im always telling myself that but does it ever happen?nope..so my mission tomorrow: get room clean before i have to babysit! ew, that reminds me..i've been babysitting ALL WEEK.and yeah, i've gotten good money..but all i've been doing is getting puked on by a baby and i dont really find that fun.espically when the baby is teething. oh wellllllll.gaahhh i have nothing else better to do with my time so why does it matter? Music Mends Broken Hearts.x3 so true.