things just dont seem to matter anymore... all these people, all these places. i cant stop eating. i dont know what it is... maybe its just the time of the year. but i cant stop. its there in the back of my mind, but i dont care enough to stop eating. im going to gain weight and hate myself. who knows where that will lead. im hoping not in a circle... but im hoping it might as well. but who am i trying to impress? not him, not her...not me. theres no reason to stop anymore. i just dont care. wanting to go to art school is beginning to feel like a mistake. i dont know why. all i know is that i want more toast... and possibly a bowl of cereal. not caring is possibly the worst thing that ever happened to me. i just dont feel like me anymore. what am i? the end.