ok.. One of my friends said.. that they thought i was being just a lil bit selfish.. (of my last entry) ... and i think shes right.. i was being a lil selfish.. its just.. i dunno.. i REALLY wanted to go up there.. i'd give up ANYTHING to go up there. but.. i'm not allowed to this winter. :'(.. well.. yea.. but one upside to that... is.. at least i'll be able to see snow!!! :-D... b.c. the church im starting to go to now... they got soo many donations.. that they used 1/3 of the donations... to buy..... 2,500 LBS OF SNOW!!!!! :-D WOO~HOO!! im soo happy.. and then for our churches christmas party. we are gonna have a snowball fight! i cant wait.. but then again.. i dunno if i wanna go. like i know im gonna end up going.. cuz i love the snow so much.. its just.. i guess its gonna be my first time with out n e of my friends... and yea.. memories.. lol.. oh.. i kno.. look at me!! what a baby i am! im afraid of memories.. lol.. i guess it prob. sounds stupid to some of you out there.. but.. u dont understand.. lol.. i guess im just being a lil over sensitive.. but.. yea. .i dunno.. well.. im glad i get snow! :-D.. thats one good thing for christmas this year. even if i cant spend it with my friends.. i guess i'll have to call them all on christmas and throw a snowall at them through the phone!! :-D.. im sure they'll like that one!! hehe...