ahhh, i read some private entries and they made me cry. i cant stand it anymore. i mean they are filled with sooo much about something and just to think about the shit i wrote makes me cry. i dont know why i feel this way, especially when i know i shouldnt, that is it best that i dont...but nooo it dont work like that. i miss everything even though i am right here. i mean i hate who i am as well as others hating me but like no matter what i will always bring myself back to the one forbidden thing. WHY? why does it have to be sooo complicated and everything, i mean i hate having a huge like empty whole in my life, and i cant take it anymore! BLINKIES: