so much is happening in my mind. theres too many things to think about. i always think when i die will i really be satisfied? i feel like im missing out on life, & im not experiencing it like i should be, i feel so empty. is this all there is to my life? its just not enough for me. & is anything really going to change? no, not if i sit here & watch everything pass by, but i dont know what to do, i feel like ill be stuck this way, empty & unhappy, i dont even know what i want & i dont know what im waiting for & its the worst feeling in the world. i dont know where i belong at all. i dont know what to do & what i do think of wont help, but maybe then ill be noticed & someone will invite me to where i really belong & where ill be happy, but until then, ill just pretend that ive already found that place. damnit, where is that place? im sorry to who ever is reading this, you dont need to hear this, you have your own problems to think about. im nothing, im a waste & i hope i dont wake up. whoa