its new years eve. i dont really have plans, & it doesnt matter because i never do on this day, but i feel like i need plans, im scared that a new year is starting & i dont know why, new years is not a big deal. i think all of this is coming from old feelings, that i ignored, i thought they would go away, but there still here, damnit. im getting tired of this sitdiary, i should make it private, theres too many people who can read this, i dont like it when people know stuff about me. well, i think ill be cleche & make some resolutions, but i dont know what to change, actually i do, but im not going to tell you. im learning guitar, & its great, me & michael are gonna make a band, a 'cool', folk, emo band, about barn yard experiences, & animals that dont belong, oh i had a lot of fun over there these past couple of days, with dominique, micahel, merridth, joaquin, oh, & amber, things such as this are so great. i will try to forget you, but i never will ----- update: i didnt think that would be the answer, but it helped.