...when dance is the thing that CAUSES pain. I seriously don't enjoy dance anymore. With all the politics and with Katie being better than me and me not getting recognition. I don't even know what to do with myself. AND ONE OF MY FUCKING SOLOS GOT REPLACED AND SHE GOT IT. I was seriously about to cry. I hate Joy with a passion. I dont think Ive ever hates anyone as much as I hate her. Hate is a strong word. And I mean every single bit of it. I also hate Katie (dance company Katie). WELL THATS TOO BAD BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT? THE BOY YOU LIKE? YAH, HIM....HE SOOO WANTS ME. YOU HAVE NOOOOO IDEA. This is because I actually know what I'm doing when it comes to boys. YOU HAVE NOOOO IDEA. You need to grow up. I'm glad I got that off my chest. It just feels like I'm standing by a wall and everyone is throwing rocks at me. It hurts, mentally. Amanda