wow. i was hoping it would never come back. looks like i was wrong. well atleast i went a good 8 months of being the happiest i have ever been. i want to move again. my parents are thinking about Pismo .. but nothing is official yet. it will be a year on the 12th since i left for Portland last year. maybe i should stop running from my problems? obviously nothing was fixed when i left home before because i am pretty much back where i started. that sucks. fixing everything isn't as easy as it sounds when you live in a town like i do. this town sucks. the people suck. it is pretty much impossible to find anything that's real. fuck this place. i'm over it. i can't wait til i can get the fuck out. i'll be 18 soon enough. ahhh ahkfjhdakhfkls !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel bad for Britian. Poor guy has to put up with these horrible mood swings i have been going through. I just wish he would understand that he is the only thing making me happy right now. He is fucking amazing. I honestly don't know what i would do without him.