wooooooooooooosh.... I went to church this morning with Donnie and Shawn. Not my church.. but the church that Will goes to. I have gone there quite a bit. Thoughts rushed through my mind as I tried to sleep last night..tossing and turning. Finally I just..gave up my burden. I've had two dreams about crazy driving and something/one falling off a cliff. The pastor said something about falling off cliffs..(a metaphor) I was in the same row as Will... across the room and I was fine. After the service his dad came up to me outside and we chatted for a little while. Will stood behind me and ..just.. acted like I wasnt there as always.. and yes..I did the same to him. I know that if he has ANYthing to say to me its an apology. ...........gr... i cant think about this anymore.. I'm most likely gonna start going to that church also.. so something's gotta give. I can't live like this. Today I just felt like calling him and asking whatever happened to us. But I know that answer and dont need to be searching for it where I absolutely know I wont find it. I will never find it from him. update: 1 Listening to: Purple Rain -leanne rimes and prince. Feeling: i dont know..0_0 i love this song! "i neva wanted to be your weekend lova. only wanted to be some kinda friend..yeahhh baby i could never steal you from anotha..such a shame our friendship had to end.. PURPle Rain puuuuuuurple rain...puuurple raaain purrrrrrple rain.yeah.."mhm. *replay* woops. now natalie merchant is going and i want to hear this. *sings* "Do you remember the way that you touched me before, all the trembling sweetness I loved and adored... Your face saving promises whispered like prayers. I don't need them." okay. enough of this depressing shit. IM HAPPY. I have alot of things to be happy about! i miss sarah tho..:( she needs to come back here! "Hi sarah. Hi lindsey. Hi Des. Hi nick. Hi..michelle. Hi rita! ok.. im forgetting alot of people but thats okay. i have.. er.. short term memeory. -_-. okay this update has no point. HI ELLIE!!! -_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_ 10 bands you've been listening a lot to lately 01 - yellowcard 02 - sevendust 03 - nickleback 04 - the nixons 05 - john mayer 06 - Taking Back Sunday 07 - finch 08 - evanescence 09 - trapt 10 - bright eyes 9 things you look forward to 1 - 4th of july 2 - possibly seeing tyler 3 - getting my car 4 - getting my licence 5 - going shopping this weekend 6 - camping out 7 - auditioning for the next A.I. 8 - summer 9 - this next level of competition 8 things you like to wear 1 - my little converse type shoes 2 - my blue faded jeans 3 - 2 shirts at once 4 - my mardigras beads 5 - workout clothes 6 - pagoda watch 7 - toe socks 8 - beanies 7 things that annoy you 1 - showing off 2 - being way naive 3 - sitD shutting down 4 - people thinking its my job to keep a conversation going 5 - people thinking that if you dont go to church that you arent christian. people can be so dumb. you can be at church and not even know God. 6 - telling my mother i dont wanna hear it and then keep saying the same thing over and over 7 - anal rentivness 6 things you say most days 1 - no way 2 - goijus! 3 - oh my fucking fuck 4 - are you serious! 5 - laugh my ass off 6 - oh my god 5 things you do everyday 1 - sing 2 - eat pasta 3 - laugh -interpretation: talk to sarah. 4 - get online 5 - feed the dogs. i have such and interesting life 4 people you want to spend more time with 1 - My neice Stevie 2 - my friends 3 - all my sisters and my brother 4 - my dogs ..yeah yeah.. not a person but whatever. 3 movies you could watch over and over again 1 - Now And Then 2 - The grinch 3 - Labryth 2 of your favorite songs at the moment 1 - purple rain 2 - your own disaster 1 person you could spend the rest of your life with 1 - i wish i knew his name.