leftout nd lonely. im a horrible friend. i need so much to make me happy. i remember this week towards the end of skool. nd i was just re-reading the entrys. nd i realized how shitty i felt then. i rememeber i cried every nite nd i wanted 2 die. i know its pathetic. i felt so bad that week. i hate thinking about it. i just wanted 2 re-read all my entrys nd like i remember how sucky that was i wanted 2 diee. god im so gay. i have no reason to feel this bad. i duno im stupid ignore this entry..