Feeling: disappointed
I did not get into Oklahoma. That fact has basically ruined my mood. I hate not being talented. I HATE HATE HATE not being talented.
I mean I know as a performer I'm supposed to be like "oh well, this show just wasn't right for me, I'll try harder next time, etc", but I guess I'm being unprofessional and feeling really bad about myself.
I mean it's not that I wanted to be Oklahoma itself...I just wanted to be in a show, on stage. I wanted so badly to just be in a cast because there's no better bonding experience. And now I have to wait until Beauty and the Beast(unless of course I don't get into that show either).
I am happy for Cate though. I'm not going to hold a grudge or anything because good friends are proud of their friends when they succeed.
I just hope I can stay strong, and not having any more breakdowns like the one I had earlier tonight.
GOD I just hate the fact I didn't get a part. ugh. It physically and emotionally hurts.
i love paris hilton!
You will get through it! There are so many more chances, and Lo, you have to realize that this is community theatre and people are not great casters!
I mean, come on, Shannon as Ado Annie? I must say that is a stretch! Well, at least, even though you probably don't care about this, but we can go--
see it together! And maybe we can go out to eat too! It will be fun. We can make a "date" of it!! Haha. Anyway, I know how it is to have a good--
friend that gets a part when you don't. It hurts, but I honestly don't think you not getting a part has ANYTHING to do with not being talented.
You're awesome.
~Mary
P.S. Sorry, i wrote a novel, practically!