guys i just feel awful and awkward and hirrible. last night i practically told nick that nothing was going to happen with us and that he's not good enough for me...(though not in so many words). i tried to be gentle but i absolutely hate telling people that like me that i don't like them back. it's the hardest thing next to breaking up and a few other things. lol. i feel like such a jerk. finally i got to my senses AFTER our convo was over and just typed that all the other stuff doesn't matter if i don't feel the same way he feels about me. i'm still not sure if he got that message b/c he didn't talk back......no wonder i'm single. if i keep shooting down every guy that comes my way then i'm just screwed. though, something inside me is saying i did the right thing and now i definitly won't be leading him on which i was probably doing w/out noticing it. i don't think nick and i would be good together..he seems to disagree but i'm going purely by gut feeling and what i know. wow...this is hard guys. i can't help but feel bad. :( alright, well i just woke up and we have to leave for eldon in 45 minutes so i'd better get my butt in gear. luv u all and God bless! please help me to stop feeling so bad...*manda********ok yeah and that's a crappy pic of me up in the corner but now you know what my short hair looks like compaired to the long. lol. bye guys...