i've forgotten just how much i love listening to jason mraz. and i don't find it a coincidence that on the nights i don't talk to patrick i'm not very happy the next day, but when i do talk to him it all of a sudden makes my day better. *sigh* it's hard dude. i can't just call him up and be like hey wanna go do somethin? i can't just drive over to his house or see him at a school function. i can't even see him every two weeks, or talk to him every night. but every time i ask myself if he's worth it, i can't bring myself to say no. i just have to keep telling myself that things will get better this summer when i don't have to rely on weekends to drive down there and maybe he can drive here. just keep wishing. tonight i went to a cello concert with my sister at some college. it was beautiful...honestly i can never get over the way classical music calms me. i thoroughly enjoyed myself and got to spend some time w/ the sibling i like to call hooch. tomorrow's a half day..woowoo!! i have to work till close..again. i've never once not closed at that store. sheesh. school is stressing me out. 5 more weeks. just 5 more... night guys. God bless u. try talkin to Him, He'll respond but you have to listen. *♥manda*