1. I hate nikki marie martinez. for a so claled friend, she told my sister everything, about skipping class for matt, and spending the nite at his house. i really dont like her, and im afraid i will never be her friend again, she always ruins my relationships. anyways......i cried so much today. i went on a bus and almost left town. if it wasnt for matt i wuddnt have stayed. he was talking but not too much he had to go. i was crying so much felt like i was going to pass out. i finally wen home, still crying my sister throws a few things at me. im feeling totally down bc my mom knows and i cant stand this. 2. i hate my sister. she told my mom eerything, she knows i wud have covered for her not to mention the same nite i went to matts she was going to go with her firend to their house with her boyfriend. and i didnt say anything. she hit a car, and left it once i said nothing. she took me with her to ditch class once, so wat is her deal? 3. i guess theyre all pissed off at me bc its hard to be around me wen im with matt. im sorry i love him. but im not. all the times nikki needed me to go with her and her bfs bc her mom doesnt let her go herslef, i went with her. and sometimes they left. i did it for her, shes done it for me, the point is...i DIDNT rat her out. 4. i was starting to feel better, my mom and my dad were calming down. i took a nap...woke up and find out from jsutin, matts grounded. for 2 weeks. and i mean GROUNDED. i cud hardly handle 2 days with out him, i think im going to crash. 1. no best friend 2. no boy friend. 3. no sister. 4. no one. im in a terrible mood. ive taken a shot with a few attempts...im so sad. so now i dont know wat to do. i cant call him. i cant see him. i cant call a friend to help me. i dont have anyone to trust. gah. im so done. anonymous comment? how bout u tell me y i shud be suprised.