Tonight was possibly one of the weirdest nights ever. I think I may have actually hurt a very close friend of mine. He came over, I didn't know it was going to happen, I really didn't. Josh came to my play, I was so excited, I was jumping up and down with my extacsy at getting to see him. Him and Kayla broke up, it should have been an amazing night, I should have said no when he asked to come over, but I didn't. Why not, I never say no. I don't know what to do. He wasn't who I wanted to be there with, but Josh was far away already, I couldn't help it that he wasn't here. But I kissed him and I let him touch me, oh god, I can't even write about it. And if you know me, don't ask me about it. You know I wouldn't want you to.