i love the song "sullivan street". i remember back in the day (like 6 months ago) when i was obsessed with this song. lol all i wanted to do was just make out with a guy and have this song playing in the background... *hint hint* matt. jk jk so i had a pretty shitty day yesterday. heather and i both did. we seem to always go thru shitty days and odd situations together. thats why i am glad she's my bestfriend. i dont think anyone can ever understand me as well as she can. i cant really pinpoint what exactly made my day so horrible. i was really troubled by things. things that have to do with my relationship, with my family... with friends. but for the love of me i couldn't tell ya what the hell was wrong with any of them. i just "had the feeling". i have a bad habit of having those feelings. last night matt said i was acting funny. its hard to talk to him about things because i feel the minute i start telling him how i feel ill begin to cry. i dont like anyone to see or hear me cry. maybe only jen. to make my day yesterday worse... when i got home last night around 12... i was talking to jen online and she told me to call her. she told me to call her at home. at home? i wondered... why would she be at home if she's at college right now still. thanksgiving break couldn't have started this early? as i was calling i knew something was wrong. sure enough jen broke the news to me that my grandma went into the hospital around 9 p.m. NOT GOOD. If she gets a cold i wanna fly home... my bags are packed right now. i want to be with her. but they insist that everything is going to be ok and there's no need for the family and i to fly home. congestive heart failure is ok now? I THINK NOT. For all those christians out there... if you can, keep my gram in your prayers. ona brighter note... stella won last night!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!! i wanted her to win... i am always routing for the underdog it seems. personally, i think stella was the better looking one out of the two. k-jo had a good personality but I think she was to young for bob. hoping today is better than yesterday, but I highly doubt it... Danielle