I'm spent.i'm ready to give it all for her.Everything.for the first time.all of me.i want to start over and make things new.IT took all i had not to cry when i was with her yesterdy.i couldn't even talk it was so bad.i need her love again.all 74% percent of it.that hurt so much.it's hard to talk to her now without feeling hurt.is all this waiting for me to straighten my life out or to fall for someone else.it's going to get prolonged more and more this way.thats what makes it bad.love.fuck love.the so called unconditional feeling.well whats so conditional about this?were both at our breaking point.she says i still go out all the time and yet she does the same.she knows why i do.it's the same reason she does.i whish she would take me.i mean i'm here.if you say you want me back i'm here.i've always been here for you.just take me.hell,i'll evenm give you a glass of water if it makes it easier.i just want us to be happy again.tell me what i can do.anything i'll do it.i wonder if she will ever be happy again.and if i'll be in the picture.