This is just awesome! I dunno - but I've been feeling absolutly amazing since monday for the first time in about 8 or 9 months. So, last night I got the attention of a very important person and I've been absolutly giddy ever since. *grins* its so weird. :: Thanksgiving Break :: Weds: half day - went to Brads, got sick (sign from G-D) Thurs: Diagnosed with Tonsilitus Fri - Sunday: More sickness -- allowing for a lot of time for me to think. I thought a LOT and finally did something for myself on monday. Mon: Went to Cass' - went for a 7 mile walk. decorated her house with Xmas shit. Made an obsticle course out of a skate park. Played tag. Stole a penguin Ended "friendship/acquantinced-thingy" with Brad *Had the best night of my life* That penguin will rest forever in my heart and soul as a sign of our everlasting klepto times *jilly and cass* luv you both! Anyways... things are going well for me and my mission. I do 150 situps every day. 1 hour of pilates, and I eat way less. I've decided to take my anger out on the world by exercising instead of cutting and singing helps too..... this will probably only last a month =/ i'm hoping to beat it out of my system ********************************************* Come to think of it~~ i have no reason to cut anymore or burn. My life is finally going in the right direction... ********************************************* BEN ~~ Thank you for everything. We'll never be apart again for that long! I promise DAN ~~ Your girl will find her way back to you, don't worry JEFF ~~ We make a great team. SAGGG!