friday at last. only one more week before half term. yay! o crap. valentines day on monday. the most depressing day of the year for me. why? coz i never get valentine cards/texts/poems etc. ive never had a boyfriend in my life, and up until now, ive spent the past few valentines days hoping someone will notice me. huh. fat chance of that. ive given up hoping now, so if i do get asked out, it will be a pleasant surprise. if i dont get anything, then it will only be what i'd expect. i dont think anyone would really notice if i went and never came back.... o people might say 'it seems emptier in here', but they wouldn't really register why. i think i might find a nice, small, cold, dark, airless hole to crawl into and die. bliss. or i could end my pain fast (the hole would be kinda slow), one of my dads sharp kitchen knives,a diagram of the human body pinned to my shirt and a mirror....nah, too much mess. i'll stick with the hole. bye xxx