I want a guy I hate not being able to get the nerve to call him. I hate that I want him to im me or call me... i hate that I think he should make the first move. I couldn't tell you why I can't im him or don't have the nerve to. I can't tell you why I can't do it. I just can't. Then I think if i can't be the person i am around him then he isn't the one, cause the person I will end up with i can be myself with.